Square peg fits into a round hole for once

I finally have good news to share for a change. My HSG today showed a clear, scar-free uterus. I’m so excited. Finally some good news. I was freaking out over it and anticipated the worst. I panicked. I went in there with a completely nervous stomach and an abundance of emotional tears. But this time the HSG wasn’t as uncomfortable. I guess it makes a huge difference if they’re trying to get the catheter in through scarring. That’s probably what made it hurt like hell previously. B was watching the dye fill in and for a second thought all hope was lost. I couldn’t look at him, I was too worried that looking at him and seeing the look on his face (if it was a “not good news” look) would only make me panic more. He said at first it looked like the dye hovered around my cervix and wasn’t going to go any further. Damn stubborn dye! But then it burst through and filled up the entire uterus. And what a uterus it is - I was told it’s the right size, shape and looked as good as it gets. I’m ecstatic. I also asked the radiologist if my tubes were open and he said one definitely, and the other most likely. He needed to review the report some more to confirm but hey, one good tube is all it takes.

So now I left a message for the RE to see if we can still do a round of IUI this cycle. I’m not on Clomid, and today is day 6 so I feel like I missed the Clomid boat. But perhaps they can still do an IUI at ovulation time, just to give us a little insurance for this cycle. It can’t hurt. If not, we’ll do the baby dance the ole fashioned way. IT works for millions of people so why couldn’t it work for me. Who knows – maybe we’ll get lucky for a change.

The past 3 nights I’ve been enjoying wine again. It had been over a year since I really allowed myself a glass of wine. I could get used to this. I’m feeling so much better. Thanks for all of your support. It means the world to me.